blog is a four letter word

so i'm an idiot. i won't go into detail, but i royally fucked something up that i've been working a long time for.

i've been having a really hard time of it lately and i knew as soon as i did this it would bite me in the ass and they would bite my head off and then i have no ass and no head - and that is exactly how i feel. my stomach feels like it's been punched a thousand times and the way i act lately is like i have no brains. 

i will be taking a long hiatus from the internet in every form, aside from checking my emails. 

so there's that.